This week my minibook, Women and Lust: Exposed, Forgiven, and Embraced, was released!
It’s exciting, surreal, and a little scary to put myself out there with this sort of confession. It began with a blog post that I wrote three years ago, Confessing Your Skeletons, and after countless discussions with friends, and some prodding, I submitted a book proposal to my friends at Key Life. Within a few hours, they came back and were fully supportive of the project and sent everything off to the publisher on my behalf.
With my friend (Lauren) on the other end of that phone call, I laid on the ground, face first, and wept. I wept because I’m literally no one. I wept because having something published is a huge honor. I wept because I’d be the first woman to step forward and admit this sort of thing, while simultaneously calling the church on the carpet for the ways they’ve misconstrued this topic and shamed people away from the love of God.
I’m no sex-pert. I’m not a psychologist. But I am well acquainted with lust as a woman and more importantly, I am well acquainted with the gospel that has broken down into my shame and has given me hope in the love and forgiveness of God. I’m well acquainted with freedom. Not freedom from the struggle, don’t misunderstand me. This is something that I’ll probably always struggle with. What I’m saying is, I’m free to run to God with my junk instead of hiding from him because of it. I’m free to be honest about that truth with others. I’m free to write that little book and push it out into the world so that other women (and men too!) know they aren’t alone either, and that God loves them.
I’m thankful to Steve Brown and the Key Life gang for being so loving and supportive of this project (they are still hoping I’ll write a bigger book on the topic and I’ve begun that process). I’m proud of Steve Brown for being behind me 100%. He’s an old, white, Presbyterian pastor, you guys. This topic scares the spit out of him, but he believes the gospel enough to stand with me as I say these things. I’m thankful to Lauren Larkin, my friend, who pushed me to submit this book proposal in the first place. I tried to dodge it, because of fear, and she wouldn’t let me. As it turns out, she was also my editor. Her hands are all over this minibook and that means the world to me.
It’s a very short book, sort of like a devotional, that can be read in 30 minutes or so. You can grab a copy at KeyLife.Org for $4. If you’d like to purchase them in bulk, you can do so at New Growth Press.
If you’d like a sneak peak, Key Life is running a post this week with a preview that you can find here.
I also did an interview with Key Life on the minibook and we dive in a little deeper on the subject, which you can listen to here.
I’m still a nobody and writing this didn’t make me an expert, but I sincerely hope that this little book encourages whoever picks it up. I hope it helps you to see that Jesus is way better than they’ve told you he is, especially when it comes to sexual brokenness.